Taking it to God

Do you ever feel like it’s not well with your soul? I spent a long time yesterday in a dark place. A great deal of crying and heartache. Circumstances surrounding me were sucking the life out of me. And worse than that, I was letting them. Admittedly, I’m still not in a great place today. If feel like I am being stripped of everything around me, all the things that I could stand on and find strength and comfort in. My guess is that He’s doing this so that I will rely more on Him, trust Him...so He can empty me out and fill me with Him. It’s a beautiful sentiment and honestly one I want to see happen.

I have, for a long time, pondered and prayed to be a Melody who is 100% and completely devoted to God, a Melody whose sole and soul focus is Jesus...what an amazing sight that would be. I love God. I am a Jesus follower. I am also selfish, lost, broken, hurting, self-absorbed, distracted. I find it easier to stick my head in a book or TV or Facebook than sit down and talk to God. Why? I honestly don’t have a good answer. God is always there for me and yet I often ignore Him or push Him away. Maybe it’s human nature, but I can’t imagine that that’s how God created us. He wants a relationship with us! Yet, I know I’m not the only one who does that, keep God at arms length. Right now my circumstances suck, but somehow I need to be able to see the joy in this journey. So I guess today as I write I’m also praying that God‘s going to help me see and feel the joy and peace that only He can bring into my life. The joy and peace that Paul felt as he was chained to a wall in a prison singing songs to God. Oh, to be in that head space right now. So, I sing it is well with my soul, and trust in God to fulfill His promises. 
 
What are you struggling with today? Are you taking it to God or are you drowning in your circumstances? There is a great deal on the horizon, I pray that you learn from me and hand it over to God and not be like me and keep trying to do it all yourself. Let God be your healer no matter what is happening around you. ​